A friend of the family finally lost her battle with cancer and on Friday was a memorial service. Saturday started off with me visiting a close family friend in a nursing home because of a fall that had meant a major operation & subsequent recovery period. I then get a text to say my friend is in hospital. I have no other details which means my mind comes up with all different scenarios.
So what have I done with my life? Can I honestly say that I have made a difference?
The answer to the first is 'not a lot' or so it feels although to some people it might seem I have achieved a lot. I do have a degree, I have been abroad and I am lucky to have participated in a few adventure type holidays.
I would like to think that to the second question the answer is "yes". Working in a charity helping people with benefit and debt problems sort of answers that. I have also partook in several charity sponsored events without really thinking about what they were for,maybe even done then more for me than the cause.
I know I am loyal to my friends and they will say that I have made a difference in their lives even I it is just being crazy and bringing a smile to their faces.
So would I go back and do things differently?
Probably not, of course their are events that yeah I would change but in general I think that I am probably doing the best I can looking out for myself and others. In fact a friend commented that I am a thoughtful person as in thinking of others, so I guess other people can see it too.
